Friends, Music, and a dab of other things

Given recent events, I've sort of rediscovered some of my friends. I wish some of them would have stayed hidden. But that's neither here nor there. I have the bestest besty in the world. She blows your besty out of the water. Just totally. She's going through a very happy time right now. And while a very small part of me is jealous, a large part of me is relieved that happiness can still happen to normal people and reassured that one day it will grace my presence. I'm reconnecting with my buddy Stephen which is a blessing since he's a calming, sane influence in my life. He's a saint for helping me with my chemistry which isn't easy at all.
I have a stadning lunch date with Holly and I'm going to Temple with Steve next week. I do things now. I can remember when I used to not do things. When I used to sit at home and not do things. And be sad. I'm sad now, but it's in public away from my house.

Music these days suck. The songs are about how to do a dance step. They're dancing instructions. Isn't art supposed to imitate life? Life isn't about dance steps. Whatever happened to love and hate and jealousy and pain? Suicide and adventure? What happened to the quality and depth of people's lives?

The end of my childhood is fast approaching. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I know I need to get my ass off the fence about that though.