At the end of the day all I can do is fuck up

I'm not sure what to say. It's hard to know exactly what to say. I try really hard to make sure that I'm lovable. And I never quite get there. I always fall just short. It hurts my heart when I think about it. I've tried so many times and I keep failing.

Drew hates me now. Which is understandable. I hate myself the majority of the time. It just hurts my heart to have him of all people want nothing to do with me. Damn it hurts.