NOT PREGNANT!!!!
I'm excited. Stressed that stress can make it this late, but happy it's here. Nick and I are working on getting to know each other so we can hopefully start going out one day in the future. I know it sounds retarded, but I'm a little excited about it. Nervous because of the whole Andrew angle but we'll let that play out.
More later.
Oh by the way I got my tongue pierced last night. It's nifty.
Growth is a big part of life. So is change. Sometime they're quite scary but what can you do? You can't skip out on life. I went to Harbor Fest Saturday to see the fireworks. I really enjoyed them. Lightning, fireworks.....the sky is an awesome thing to watch. Always. I've grown a little bit. Other people I know have grown quite a bit as well. While it's a tad discomforting because change is different and it's scary, I'm also quite happy. When I went to Harbor Fest I was with Stephen and his girlfriend, her brother and his girlfriend, and her friend and her boyfriend. I've known Stephen for a while. We were EXTREMELY tight. We were both going through some deep shit. We needed each other. We were sounding boards for each other.
Stephen doesn't need me anymore. And I'm glad. I felt a little ignored and not at all liked by any of the other people there. Except for Sara. She seemed pretty chill. The thing is though it was ok. I've never really seen Stephen THAT out of his shell. It was a happy sight. Not that I'm saying he's like socially stunted. That's not it at all. He was just....relaxed and open. Happy. It was nice to see.
My tattoo that I'm getting is going to be quite emotional for me. I'm excited about it. I'm also excited about my second piercing. I'll take pictures of it once the swelling goes down a bit. The industrial is quite sweet I must say. Anyway, next on my list after I gain some employment, is a tongue piercing and a tattoo on my right hip. I won't say what it is yet because I want it to be a bit of a surprise. Rebecca had something to do with it though. She inspired it if you will. I'll let yall think on that for a second.
is Andrew.
It has been for the past two years. I hung out with Katie today. She's a lot of fun. We laughed and talked about all manners of things.
She's really happy with George. Like unbelievably (I know I spelt it wrong.) happy. That's truly amazing. Really and truly. I have to learn how to go for what I want though. I think the next time we sit and talk it'll be really good for us. I think some questions that I've had on my mind will finally get answered. The talk with Katie today and just the hanging out really helped me.
But the very first thing I'm going to do when I see him, if he lets me, is hug him till he pops. I have had some serious moments of self-doubt lately and I've missed Sweetpea's arms. And his smell. It's very comforting.
As long as I have thoughts like these, I'm never going to be able to be with someone else. So we either need to lay these feelings to rest or act on them.
It's time.
Since the tattoo scene in Hampton Roads leaves something to be desired (I'll get into that in a minute), I'm looking to travel to either Charlotte, Richmond, or DC to get my ink. I will be getting my industrial done at good ole Finders Keepers in Norfolk though. Why fuck with results? Not to mention tradition.
